I Am Not A Good Girl


Oh yes, I am not a good girl

I whipped someone with my words

I crushed myself with my thoughts

I fought out of pride

I allowed myself beaten

I wished for someone else’s death

I wished for my own death


 Oh yes, I am not a good girl

I cannot stop hating passionately

I cannot control my evil thoughts

I cannot move on from bitter past

I cannot have freedom from guilt

I cannot be a good girl on my own

Unless I am dependent on good God


Happy Independence Day to all my American Friends. This might means so much to you as it means so much to us Filipinos when we celebrate our independence from Spanish and American colonies. But honestly, I am not so sure if we are truly independent as a nation. Can one indeed be free just because the tangible prison wall is brought down?

What I am sure is I am free when I allow my Saviour to rescue me from the intangibles that imprison and stop me from being a good girl.

How about you, are you a good girl? Are you free?

You may not answer the questions but please feel free to listen to this  song.


In my anguish I cried to the LORD, and He answered by setting me free. – Psalm 118:5


8 Responses to “I Am Not A Good Girl”

  1. Debbie Says:

    Praying to stay dependent on my good God! Love you sweet spoon and thank you for this precious reminder of how much we need Him!

  2. Chatter Master Says:

    No, I’m not so good. But I love my Lord and know He is. 🙂

  3. Joshua H Wu Says:

    Neither am I a good boy! Worthy is the Lamb! haha

    • bendedspoon Says:

      Joshua! I was supposed to put a line about good boys because you crossed my mind and look, He brought you here! I am blessed, thank you! 🙂

  4. Jamie Dedes Says:

    A sincere post, straight from the heart. Well done and well considered.

    Thanks for the well wishes on our independence celebration.

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